#11 Special

Who am I to you,
For you are the special one to me.
One that brightens up my life,
One that showed me how to smile

Did I arrive too late,
In your life of many days.
2 months to be exact,
Enough for you to fall in love with another guy.

I just wished,
I had the chance to be.
Someone special in your heart,
Someone you hold dear to.

But I only hope,
That you would be happy.
With someone you love,
For I would be happy as long as you are.

You are not the one,
I am all alone.
It doesn't matter at all,
As long as you are not alone.

I loved you,
And I still do.
I just want you to know,
I'll be always there for you.

Written by fallen reason ©2009. fallen reason is a registered trademark in the name of Chow Yuan Ing. Protected by copyright laws.

Notes: I'm happy, as long as you are.

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#10 Song of Hatred

Every right to hate, you apologised too late.
All the pain i loathe, you do not deserve my love.
Rot together with earth, and witness hatred's birth.
For you will hear bells, that lead your soul to hell.

Awaken to your destiny, for you will realise you're so lucky.
Born to hate, loved too late, promises ate, i'm not your lovely date.
Awaken to your destiny, get down on your kness.
Pray for forgiveness, for giving me loneliness.

Never changed, I am still the man I did not want to be.
Words so strange, I did not understand my destiny.
If my destiny was to hate, then did I love too late?
If I was to love, then would you be the one I chose?

No, the answer is no!
I will never love, one that showed me how to break promises!
I will never hate, one that showed me how to love!
For the only one I will ever choose, this song is for you.
I once loved you, but now I hate you!
This is my love, and I'm throwing it away now!
Down the drain! Down the sewers! Down the sea!
Into a fish's mouth! Turns to Shit!

For you, did not deserve my love!
I loved you so hard, you never replied!
You broke so many things!
Your promises, my heart, our love, our future!
You, don't deserve my LOVE!!!

This, is the song of hatred!
A song of how much I hate the one that I once loved so much!
Your name is to be forgotten!
I told myself to move on! But I'll do that while hating!
Hating the one that I loved so much, I do not love you anymore!

Written by fallen reason ©2009. fallen reason is a registered trademark in the name of Chow Yuan Ing. Protected by copyright laws.

Notes: said before that every song deserves its story to be told, so i guess this song i wrote deserves a place on this blog aniwaes. It's my feelings like very long ago, but i've long buried it, so it doesn't really mean anything anymore.

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#9: Why Did You

Now everything seems perfectly fine,
but I didn't know what to say.
Stuck at absolute square one,
thinking of what I should have done.

Thrown my pride away,
thrown my selfishness away.
I did this all for you.

Close my eyes,
and pray for your heart.
That you will understand,
my love for you.

So why did you cry?
Why did you smile?
Why did you make those frowns between your eyes?

Why did I love?
Why didn't I know?
Why did I seem to love you too much?

So why did I care?
You asked me why.
Cuz you're the only one to make me smile.

Why did you love?
Why did you know?
That my love will,
Never end.

Written by fallen reason ©2009. fallen reason is a registered trademark in the name of Chow Yuan Ing. Protected by copyright laws.

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